Getting over low self-esteem socialization as a woman

meme on women and male attention

meme on women and male attention

For women, religion has been a double-edged sword. It has been a source of comfort but it has also been the source of downgrading you in society in many ways.

I am a man. I know that I cannot express what it is to be a woman in this world today. I am a heterosexual male. I can see things that women go through because of what has been a male-dominated society that strips women of their self-esteem and dignity.

I have a daughter. I have done my best to teach her about who she is that is not living relative to any human being on this planet. What I mean by living relative to someone is that your identity in many cases is defined by someone outside of you.

I have done my best to teach her a saying, define your life for you, by you, and have the courage to live the definition.

That means that you have to have the confidence to set the tone for how you want to live regardless of how society may want to dictate.

A male-dominated society has taught women that they have to live relative to what men want. Religion has set the tone for these ideas.

Women have been trained to believe so many lies:
1. That a man is your savior.
2. Your god is a man.
3. Your highest attainment in life is to have a man want you as a wife. As if you and your life are incomplete if a man does not find you to be wifey material. It’s not true!

You are a goddess. You are a powerful creator you are eternal. You are not to be subservient to another soul that happens to be in a male body.

You don’t need to bleach your skin, straighten your hair, enlarge your breast or buttocks to be attractive to any man. If he does not accept you as you are, fuck him!

Then create (that’s what a goddess can do) and attract the man that will light your soul. You are that powerful! But you have been trained to believe you are weak and in need of another’s strength, that just happens to be a man.

The idea that a woman needs a man as a protector is ultimately disempowering to a woman. It implies that she is too weak to take care of herself. I know many women have bought into this idea. But it really becomes a disservice to you and your own strength and power.

A truly strong, beautiful, intelligent, modern woman lives her life in conflict when it comes to men. It should not be that way. But as long as you accept ideas (created by men) like you come from a man’s rib and you are to be subservient to a man because “God said so” (a man in your world) you will stay in conflict and inner turmoil.

When you, as a woman, learn your true power the world will change for the better and set men free of a self-inflicted prison. It’s not about whether or not you need a man in your life. The truth is you don’t need anyone.

In many cases, women have been trained through religious values to devalue their needs and disempower themselves. As you are coming into spirituality you will have to unlearn many things. The idea that your value is related to what a man sees or doesn’t is a major thing you will need to grow through.

What we all should want, male and female, is a companion that will love us in a way that frees us! Frees us to be the highest vision of ourselves.

I taught this to my daughter. I am so proud that the lives life on her terms. Ase’


How to pray spiritually instead of religiously



When you are first coming out of Christianity you feel lost. All the ways you thought about life, God, the world you now look at in a different way. All the things you used to do in religion you naturally begin to question. It’s not that you just changed your mind, your whole way of being is simply stripped from you.


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There are a couple of questions I get asked often:

  1. How do I pray?
  2. Who do I pray too?

Today I will address how.

When we were religious we were told to pray about things. We were taught the ritual and even a few words to say at the beginning and the end of our prayers.

Only thing is, those prayers were only part of a much bigger spiritual science concept of prayer. If you don’t believe that then ask yourself why “sinners” could get prayers answered and “saints” couldn’t? Because there is more to it than religion had taught us.

What prayer is and how you pray are religious ideas you will have to unlearn. But learning the truth will be more empowering in your everyday life. It becomes more about who you are and how you think all the time. Not just when you get scared or in trouble.

What is the big deal about thoughts?

You are always praying

You will hear in many spiritual circles that monitoring your thoughts is important. you will also hear about thinking positive is important. There is a logical reason for these ideas circulating.

It’s because they are tied to the way you communicate as a being that is part of the universe. Everything in the universe is essentially sound organized in a certain formation based on frequency.

The way you draw experience into your reality is based on the vibrations that you are emitting from within yourself. Thoughts have a frequency and “travel” through the universe.

You might be asking, what do thoughts and frequency have to do with prayer? Answer: Everything!

Understand this, you are never not praying (double negative intended). That’s because you are always communicating with the Universe via your thoughts, vibration, and frequency. Everything vibrates and your frequency is analogous to tuning into radio signals. You can turn a dial (intentions) on a radio and tune it into different stations.

Your emotions are key to understanding what message you are sending to the universe. Emotions are how you can understand what frequency you are sending out.

When life feels good and positive, you are operating through the frequency of love. which puts you closer to source vibration. When you are operating in life from anger, shame, obligation etc. You are living life through your fears. You should monitor your feelings. They are equivalent to the frequency you are on in the physical body.

You should monitor your thoughts because they are oftentimes what triggers emotions. As Christians were taught rituals and certain words to say in a certain way but we were not taught the science of prayer.

After coming out of Christianity and getting over the uneasy feeling of “I don’t know what to do next” I found out that I am a whole lot more powerful than I was taught. So are you.

This is what you have to unlearn about prayer:

  1. That you have to say certain words
  2. that you have to do certain things a certain way like bowing your head, close your eyes, put your hands together

This is the new idea you will have to learn about prayer:

  1. because you are a vibrational being, you are ALWAYS praying to the universe.
  2. your thoughts carry your frequency through the universe at any given moment
  3. your emotions are triggered by your thoughts

When you learn the science of prayer you begin to “pray” spiritually rather than religiously. When you understand prayer from a science perspective it begins to affect your everyday life.

God is not “out there.” You don’t turn 0n your prayer request when you begin the ritual. You are always connected and always communicating with The All (God). Being spiritual means you recognize you are connected with the divine at all times. It’s not about how you “act” as an individual. It’s about how you are BEING.

Being includes how you think consciously and even the subconscious thoughts you are not aware of but programmed into you through experiences since childhood. Being is how you CHOOSE to move through your day to day life in a vibrational state and frequency that draws to what you based on your most prevalent thoughts.

The universe doesn’t speak languages. It “feels” frequency. YOUR frequency! It is not outside of you. You are connected to it from within. That’s praying spiritually. You literally “speak” to the universe based on who you are being as a frequency.

Here’s what I mean on a practical level. You are single. You desire to be in a relationship. But you keep running into the wrong type of people. No matter who you are with, the same things keep happening within those relationships.

Guess what? Think about how you think about the opposite sex. Do you have negative expectations? Do you assume that you will get cheated on or hurt because of the last relationship?

Those ideas are thoughts and beliefs you have. They manifest into the people and events in your life. As I stated before, it’s not just the thoughts you’re consciously aware of. It is also your subconscious programming. The people you end up in relationships with are your prayers being answered. That’s what you are attracting based on your frequency! Life is your feedback. It is always reflecting what is within at the deepest most intimate levels of your being.

You are ALWAYS “praying” but you have to become aware of what you are thinking. That means consciously and subconsciously (your programming).

The journey you’re on is scary at first because you are operating outside of religious ideas that have literally kept your mind captured. But your enlightenment will be such a source of freedom that you will wonder what took you so long. But know that your timing is perfect for YOU.

Free yourself. Fact-Check that old belief system. Developing that confidence and self-esteem will help you raise your consciousness, your vibration, and evolve into a creator god/goddess. You will have to unlearn so much religious conditioning. Unlearning what prayer means is the tip of the iceberg.

As a spiritual being, you are the seed for anything that is possible in the Universe.

We live in a wondrous Universe that is waiting for creators to explore and create! But you can’t do it if you are fearful and lack self-esteem.

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Understand the real urgency is exposing religion and beating low self-esteem


So many of us don’t realize that exposing religious doctrines that negatively target self-esteem is what the battle is. We want to argue the facts and the historical accuracy of the bible. It is a losing battle. Most Christians believe faith is equal to facts and will never check whether they are or not.

Because to believe in complete faith that what they have been told is true is truth without checking is a sign of their unwavering faith, which is a sign of their strong belief.

What is or is not true about the historically true and factually accurate about the bible is really secondary for me. When you uncover the origins of the bible and the true meaning it can still be useful.

It’s the psychological impairment that is the real issue for me. In order to accept the doctrines of the faith as Christians, we were taught these ideas in the meme. How many of you would state these ideas as affirmations every day?

Christian doctrines psychologically destroy self-esteem. Lack of self-esteem impacts not only you but your relationships, career choices, financially, whether or not you can start a business and many areas of your life you don’t think about.

400 million people of the African diaspora living in poverty worldwide, in some of the richest nations and on a continent with any natural resource you can imagine. Yet we can’t lift ourselves out of poverty. One major reason is low self-esteem. Accepting beliefs like these keep us locked into a reality that is our own hell.

Let’s quit fighting over whether Jesus is real or not. There is something larger at stake. It is the self-esteem lowering doctrines that attack us from the inside out and cause us to doubt our own minds.

We are taught to look to others for confirmation of the negation of ideas that come to us.  This is the true travesty of accepting doctrines of faith simply on faith.

ideas that like original sin which is the doctrine which holds that human nature has been morally and ethically corrupted due to the disobedience of mankind’s first parents to the revealed will of God, is really an attack on humanity.

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Original sin says by nature humans are morally corrupt.  That means you are morally corrupt at birth because of what Adam and Eve did. Think about the implication here! It means that you, me, and everybody are born corrupted and no good.

Now how does that affect your beliefs about people you are in relationships with? If you have a negative experience with a man or woman, do you assume that all men and when are the same nature as them? I know in many cases that is true, but the underlying reason for that mistrust in the opposite sex may never be tied to an underlying religious belief about human nature.

How many relationships are sabotaged because deep down a person feels that they are unlovable? If your basic beliefs about humanity are that they are corrupt, does that not include you? A person that feels unlovable within will question the person that professes to love them and not really trust what they have to say.

book quote on being unlovable and self-esteem

I am expressing possible layers here, not absolutes. The ideas weave in and through our life experience in different ways. But if the foundation the beliefs are built on is negative then the structure of self-esteem is shakey. I know from experience of trying to love someone who deep down didn’t feel lovable. It is exhausting.

How does it affect those that may begin to feel low about themselves? Does that belief help them to rise from the depression?

What if you have started a business and having a difficult time getting things going, do you start thinking your sinful nature may be being punished? You can’t beat God, so do you give up trying?

What about a person whose self-esteem is already low? Already beat down from years of indoctrination, oppression, racism etc. Can you even think that you are smart enough or skilled enough to start a business? The truth may be that the person is an absolute genius, with skills out of this world. But if they don’t believe it, they will stay right where they are and never try.

That’s what accepting negative beliefs about self will do.

Historical facts are good to have, but they will not build your self-esteem. Only strong esteem for self will do that.

We have to reimagine a new world, and that starts with a mind that can believe it is possible and a spirit that will stick with it until the job is done!


What does the cross really mean at Christmas

the pope and the cross

The placement of the cross tells a story about the son/sun traveling through the zodiac.

On December 22,the sun/son “dies” signaling the winter solstice where nights will be longer than days. The son/sun sets in the same position on the horizon for three days until the sun/son will be “born” or “reborn” on the 25th when each day it will set a little higher on the horizon until the vernal equinox when the day is equal to night.

This signals the beginning of springtime or Easter when days become longer than night. The sun/son is then said to “triumphs over darkness” and is “resurrected.”

In the summertime, the sun gets strong and heats the winds that feels like a lions breath (these stories begin in Africa). It enters the house of Leo where the son/sun is known as the “lion of Judah” that comes in power and glory.

Around September the sun/son reaches a point on the horizon where day and night is equal again. It is a place of balance (libra scales) known as the autumnal equinox or “The mount.”

Util October when the sun/son is stung by the scorpion (kissed by Judas because a scorpion sting looks like a pair of lips) and begins its slow death setting lower on the horizon each day until it dies on “the cross” the 22nd of December. (the catholic church changed the original story for dramatic effect and placed the crucifixion in the spring.)

The story of Jesus is the story of the sun/sons travels through the zodiac.

This is why we celebrate these travels of the sun as major holidays tied to “the greatest story ever told.”

Merry Christmas!


The Khemetic origin of what it means to be in this world but not of this world

Who is the real you?

This question may seem simple to answer on the surface from our modern perspective. Today we believe the real you is who you see looking back at you in a mirror. However, from the ancient African spiritual science perspective, the real you is the Ka (soul) and the physical body is the Kas projection into the physical world.

Were you taught the idea of not being of this world as a Christian? Because of the Christian conception of this idea, were you “so heavenly bound that you were no earthly good?” It usually is stated by some as a badge of honor but bound in the misery of their life. No worries, not your fault that you were constantly taught flawed and incorrect religious crap!

Through their flawed doctrines, Christianity has always pitted the soul and physical body against one another. Life becomes a struggle against being human and being spiritual. This is one of the main reasons that so many Christians are always “backsliding.” The doctrines make it impossible for a Christian to be human and live with integrity through religious ideals.

As I have stated in other writings on this site, Christians did take Khemetic concepts and adapt them to their belief system.

This Christian idea of “not being of this world” (John 17:14) is ancient Egyptian in origin. The ancient African paradigm of thought was that the spirit or metaphysical world preceded the material world that we live in. In other words, you are a Ka (soul) that inhabits the metaphysical world. Your body is manifested BY the soul into the material world.

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As a Ka (soul), which is the “real” you according to all authentic ancient Egyptian philosophy, you are not OF this MATERIAL world, but your manifestation (the physical body) is IN the material world.

So much of Christianity was built on denying the physical body of earthly human experience. The early Christian fathers accepted flawed teachings that to enjoy physical life would keep you (the Ka) trapped in the reincarnation cycle.


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This is one of the reasons Christians taught misguided concepts like sin and mankind was born in sin. Christians taught the opposite of living a physical life than what the ancient Egyptians taught. For Christians, Just about anything that is joyful in life is a sin because it could keep you mentally and therefore vibrationally attached to physical life.

But this also is the case with anything that can produce strong emotions. For example, hate and anger can be very powerful human emotions. If unresolved through life, the emotions can keep a soul tied to repeated lives of trying to work through dealing with those emotions.

Being not of the world, the ancient Egyptians simply meant, for you, to think of yourself from the perspective of your eternal Ka. As a Ka you created a physical body to experience and ENJOY life!

For the ancient Khemites/Egyptians, it was a privilege to live life in the flesh.

Sin is an imaginary disease created by religion in order to sell you an imaginary cure.

YOU (the Ka) are not of this world and you as a physical body was created to live, love, and learn in THIS world. Whatever you don’t learn in this life you get another chance to learn in another life. Of course, Christianity has taught that you die and go to heaven or hell and that’s the end of it. As you investigate and learn more you will find that those teachings are in error.

The Egyptian idea of salvation was much different from Christianity. Salvation for them was the ability of the Ka to incarnate for another physical life! This concept is an extremely elevated idea beyond what most of us can even consider. Our religious views keep us thinking in terms of punishment for wrongs done to others. But existence is as a soul is NEVER about being punished.

That means as a living breathing physical body you have already enjoyed salvation. You are saved! But so is the racist that reincarnated into the race they hated. If you think in simple religious ideas of right and wrong you cannot grasp the depth of Kemetic teachings on living life as a soul in human form.

Being saved means you can enjoy life to the fullest. That means you will make mistakes. But you (the Ka) are to learn from them. One of the deeper concepts that are hard for Christians and ex-Christians alike is the idea that morality is not part of the soul’s journey. Morality is a religious construct.

That means as a Ka you are to learn and experience the struggle of learning self-love, gaining self-worth and learn these ideas through ALL your physical life experiences. When, as a Christian, you denied yourself of sex on a one night stand, for example, you may have blocked a path to a lesson you as Ka CHOSE to learn. As a soul, it is about the experience, not morality.

Your physical body is in this world, but who you are as a Ka(soul) is not of this world. That’s what the idea means.

Having a one night stand would not have been a sin. It would have been an opportunity to experience and learn as an eternal Ka. YOU (the soul) are not of this world. But you do get to enjoy it through your physical life. That doesn’t mean you are free of consequences. You don’t get punished.

YOU (the Ka) simply get the chance to learn it again or experience, in another life, the hell you put someone else through. For example, someone that is hateful and racist will most likely get reincarnated within the race they hated in the last life.

Not as punishment, but as an opportunity for YOU (the Ka) to learn and reconcile the experience of compassion into your consciousness. This is the idea of karma. Karma is about reconciling vibrational frequencies and not punishment.

The idea of karma reconciling vibration and frequency is a higher level of knowledge. It ties into resurrection and oneness beyond Christianities flawed historical teachings.

For ancient Egyptians, life was an absolute privilege to live. They knew that no matter what happened life was only a transitory expression of the soul. In other words, your body will die but your soul is eternal. Live life! Enjoy it! Whatever you don’t get right, you will get another chance to do it all over again! There is no sin, or hell to go to because of sin. It’s part of learning through opposites or duality.

You next logical step would be to unlearn Christian teachings and learn what they were originally meant so that you may live life in a way that is joyus and lights your soul! Unlearn the superstitions and learn the science.

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Understanding the Khemetic law of duality and why you have difficulties in life

Meme about repeating life lesson


You have lived many lives as many races. What you don’t learn in this life you get the chance to learn in another life.

Meme about repeating life lessonAs a Ka you learn through opposites. The Khemetic law of duality states that in order for any experience or phenomenon to occur in the universe there has to be opposition. In other words, when the ka(soul) wants to learn self-love it may choose a life where you get into relationships (repeatedly) with partners that are verbally and/or physically abusive to you. It’s through the opposite life experience (abuse) that you learn the true lesson of self-love.

I am using an extreme example of abuse for maximum understanding.

When you learn to stand up for yourself and appreciate who you are you will stop choosing partners that treat you like you are worthless.

You keep meeting and dating the same abusive people until true YOU (the Ka) experiences the love and respect you gain for yourself in human form. The experience feeds two levels of consciousness (Ma’at).

Ma’at as your personal; individual consciousness is one level, but there is a universal level of consciousness that is fed as well. Every experience major experience you have is recorded at both levels so that you learn but the experience is available for of levels of your oversoul (talk about the Oversoul in the bonuses for my e-course) and all of consciousness. You have heard this called the Akashic records.

If you don’t learn self-love in this life, you will incarnate in the next life with the same theme to try again. “Lesson in life will be repeated until they are learned.” This life, but next life you may create to experience self-love as a life theme.

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